BIOGRAPHY Of The Band:

•  M. Shadows: (VOCALS)                                                  Matt Charles Sanders was born on July 31, 1981. Currently is living Huntington Beach, California. The scrapping-vocalist also plays the Piano, and  occasionally will try a little guitar, and come up with riffs the band sometimes uses, like with the song “Gunslinger”.
• Johnny Christ: (BASS) Jonathan Lewis Seward. Born November 18, 1984. A Punky-player, with his Ernie Ball Musicman Sterling (2H) Bass; basically makes him a badass.
• Zacky Vengeance: (Rhythm Guitarist) Probably the best Rhythm guitarist in the game today. Zacky Baker is a rough, take no shit from no one kind of guy.
• The ReV: (DRUMS)  James Owen Sullivan, born Feb.9, 1981. The Rev does scary things when he gets behind a DW Collector Series drums.
• Synyster Gates: (Lead Guitarist) Saving the best for last. Brian haner is the best Guitarist alive. His Shredder, and Pick skills is why hes the best in the World.

Have you ever loved someone, knowing full well that they’re never gonna love you back?

Have you ever care for someone even when you know they’ll never really appreciate it the way you hope they would?

But, despite all the acknowledgement, you stay in denial- you tell yourself over and over that the person you have loved for eternity would somehow,someday, see all the sacrifice you’ve made, and give you a positive feedback..Even their little smirk gives you a pile of hope.

Then one day, they left. All ground you stand on just collapse because you know that you won’t ever see them smiling back at you again, nor will you ever hear their soothing voice.

When this thing happen, what should you do?Some people would see this in an optimistic light, seeing this as a challenge, a stepping stone to a better life, and refuse to cry over things, while for some people..Well, it’s a perfect reason to stay in bed and cry.

When this things happen to my girl pal, she do the latter-stay in bed and cry all her tears out.She had been with her boyfriend since she was 17(My girl pal was 19! ), and just last year, he finally said that he couldn’t love her the way she expect him to love her.For the whole week long, she refused to go out and do nothing but cries…I wonder how her bed stay dries.All of our friend keeps telling her to let go, and that there are many fish in the ocean… I mean, if a guy gives up a 5′7″ brunette with a modelesque body, who would sacrifice everything she got for him, it’s his lost right??

I still remember the time when he got sick and he got an assignment to finish. She tells him to rest-and she secretly finish his assignment. When they he hurt her feeling, the only thing he needs to do is smile at her and she’ll forget everything, cause she loves him too much to stay angry for long. And when everyone is against his decision, she’s the only one that stay with him and support him.

It’s a fact-When we sacrifice everything and we didn’t got what we wish for, it’s heartbreaking. We put in 100% of effort and we got 0% of desired result, for sure it’s nothing but frustrating. And when it involved a relationship with other people (especially when we’re sacrificing for the sake of the relationship), we’ll get hurt when it didn’t work out fine. About 60% of us take it as a stepping stone towards becoming a stronger and better person.. But among those 60%, most of them are just trying to put on a strong faces so other’s won’t perceive them as vulnerable. Inside, they haven’t forgive, and they’ll never forget. They blame Their feeling, they blame God, They blame everyone just so they can feel better.Despite their strong outlook, they rot with anger and hatred, sometimes to the part where they can’t be healed anymore.. Even if they started to date and got involved in a relationship, they’re never the same person again. Gone are the people who allowed others to have a sneak peek into their heart, and they became untruthful, hurtful and bitter.

For the other, mourning over lost love can make them feels better.. There’s nothing wrong with crying as crying can help us let go of most problem that we suppressed over the year. And according to one study(which I couldn’t remember who’ve conducted it), girls live longer cause they let go of their stress by means of crying while man prefer to hold it inside( to maintain their ego..and to avoid being perceived as wussy ). But for most mourner, they crying marathon could last a decade..And as they finally come to term with things, as they learn the ‘fnf’, they’re gonna look as if they’re trying too hard to impersonate the Zombie in the Resident Evil..And that kind of looks only work if it’s Halloween and there’s “scariest costume contest”( Since there won’t be any zombie movie anytime soon, it won’t work for a casting either ).

Back to my friend’s story. After two weeks, she started to go out again. I was quite surprised to see her face-glowing and no sign of puffy eyes. When i ask her about it, she simply said “I’m fine, I just need some time for myself”. Then she continue,”Of course It hurts when he didn’t love me the way I want him too. But I couldn’t hate him. In fact, I should thank him For giving me the chance to be by his side..Even when he couldn’t love me anymore.”.

Yes. There’s a brand new option to look for the next time somebody you love left you. FORGIVE AND BE THANKFUL.

Forgive the person who hurts you. And be thankful to God for giving you the opportunity to be share the same time and spaces with the person you have loved, even just for a while. And yes, you don’t have to forget it.. Keep the memory of your past relationship in your heart so you will never forget how to love with all your heart.

It hurt, and it may seems absurd. But eventually, you’ll be rewarded with peace and love.

just another crappy story from DeliriousKifley-

tick tok tick tok tick tok tick tok tick tok tick…………………(n)

Clocks tickin’ and before you know it, it’s december already. I know, it’s kinda too late to be surprised about december.. But hell yeah, I am surprised.

On the 3rd of december, I finish with my exam, and my last paper is Chemistry. I thought that all my fear and agony would be gone once I finish my chemistry paper.. But then, the agonizing fear start to crawl back when i think about how my STPM result.. Which will be out sometime next year.

Then, On the 4th of december………. It’s my birthday!! Thx to those who didn’t forget my birthday & wish me on my birthday.. I really appreciate it, espescially the SMS that arrive at the brink of the dawn. Waking up till 12am to wish someones birthday must require a lot.. But then, there are those people who claimed to be my Best Friend, but didn’t even bother SMS-ing me on my birthday… Let alone leaving a birthday comment on my fs.

And just yesterday, My hamster died… I found him lying on the floor, bleeding and cold. At the same morning, I also find my goldfish(which I Just bought on my befday) floating at the top of my aquarium..Cold and dead.

When I come to think of it, My life are filled with Drama..Which I hate so much. There’s the English camp(in which I was the camp director!) that didn’t really work, the unfinished-but-overdue chemistry&biology practical work… And then, there’s my feud with some of my friend, the make-up and break-up with my friends..

Most of my life this year revolve around my school days. It could be depressing, and at times, I do wish some terrorist would come to my school and blow it, so I don’t have to attend school anymore(hey, no school means no study). But, as hard as it it, I manage to finish it.

There’s a lot of break-ups and make-ups happen between me & my buddy this year, and a hell lot of feud( + some misunderstanding).But, Thanx to my family, my buddy and my teacher for always being there for me. Despite all the misunderstanding, they are the one who always push me pass my limits.

Mommy,Papa,Sis,Kakak Bibi,Jell Julius,Cousin Donna,

Mrs.Masniah,Mrs.Pat,Mr.Norbert and all teacher who taught me since Form1,

Sandra,Qutrun,Marrylin,Monica,Herwie,Baccylin,Jenny@Nab, Sulehe,Rajie,Zebe,Izad,Dzebie,

Dinor,Saud,Ed,Atiqah,Ismadi@ Achai,Sya,

All the members of the SMKDPMS choir group &

All the members of the SMKDPMS English Language Society.

Thank You for being part of my life and thank you for being there for me.

(and to those who always anonymously miss-called me at night,thnx too.)